Part 1 dismissing wanting help

Back in the days I was shy to tell people that i feel offended/upset/annoyed by things they do or that it is rude and expressing my opinions,

I think my parents had an influence on it,

Back in school years ago some girls were acting rude towards me I complained and expressed displeasure to my mother and she rudely dismissed my feelings because she did not think of it as a big deal and made a rude remark saying she should have not done nice things she did for me that day or recently during the time I expressed the displeasure, Which got me really hurt and I started crying in school during class and other times but I refused to tell anyone at school my mother was the cause for my sadness, She did realised at some point how upset I was and apologised but I still felt sad about what she did and cried about it even after I moved to a different school and sometimes the teachers allowed me to leave school due to my sadness and she was starting to tell me that I basically hated her and how she actually works for her brother and something I vaguely remember that if she worked for someone else she would probably get fired for me coming so soon to her workplace or something and then we went to a therapist of some sort.

(I vaguely remember sometime during the events before she apologised I asked her to apologise and she said something like im sorry I love you or care for you or something)

Part 2 physical abuse

My dad sometimes threatens to beat me up or hit me and actually has hitted me for misbehaving years ago,

I also remember I showed some kind of interests toward islam (was not planning to become a muslim) and mom got angry due to the religion being associated by some people with terrorism and at some point started slapping/hitting me so I hitted her back in self-defense and got her a black eye my sister was in the room I told her she started it and she responded with she is your mother doesn't she have the right?